Look Up Child

“I will lift up my eyes to the hills— From whence comes my help? My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel Shall neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is your keeper; The LORD is your shade at your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, Nor the moon by night. The LORD shall preserve you from all evil; He shall preserve your soul. The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in From this time forth, and even forevermore.” • Psalms 121:1-8

Anxiety has been flaring up hardcore in my life. My car was totaled a couple of weeks ago—it was parked and I wasn’t in it, but it’s still such a bummer. My laptop decided to continually crash, and even after replacing the battery myself it won’t stay on unless it’s plugged in. Tensions grew as I [selfishly] built walls in relationships around me. Today I lost my debit card—because at this point, why not?

But I know, that I know, that I know. GOD IS FAITHFUL. Through all of this muck, He has a plan. And it’s for my good and His glory. I NEEDED to be confronted with my selfishness in relationships. With my desperate need for God, every moment of every day. Pride comes before a fall, and I’m feeling that—quite literally. I went to the hospital a week ago because the anxiety manifested in my body. They did bloodwork, an EKG, and lastly a chest X-ray for the pain I felt in my side. As I lifted my hands and took a deep breath, as the doctor instructed me, I felt a twinge of pain and then…RELEASE. I just laughed. I couldn’t believe that’s all it took. Yet I couldn’t help but think that God was in that moment. Showing me the beauty and freedom in surrender. In lifting my hands, breathing deep, and trusting that He’s got it all under control,

Whatever you’re going through, lift your hands, breathe deep, trust that God has you. 💕🙏🏼🙌🏼